Three young guys meet at university and develop life changing relationships. Francis is looking for a new life and can't forget his past. Andrew the shy jock and Sebastian the overly confident and extroverted hockey star. Francis had no idea he would find someone to care for. Andrew never thought anything or anyone would matter more than his hockey career that is until he met these guys at university. Sebastian was very happy going from hook up to hook up as he never thought he would meet a guy who could hold his interest. Will they make it against all odds?
This was such a unique and thought-provoking novel and really takes you into such degrees of levels into these men. I enjoyed how the story goes from past to present and it flows very smoothly and easy to follow. Francis had a huge dramatic past filled with abuse, bullying and suicide. He had a lot of guilt which was very misplaced and he carries a tremendous amount of baggage. He meets Sebastian at University and he's quite intimidated with him and Andrew who he felt he shared a huge connect with. The three men developed. a huge bond which includes a hot threesome and then comes the drama by way of a reporter who comes around to expose Francis past. Then Sebastian and Andrew do the most beautiful thing to help Francis and that one act of love moved me beyond tears.
This is a beautiful and heart wrenching story filled with love, loyalty, abuse, sex, forgiveness and acceptance. I love how these guys were on the most important journey of self-discovery. The author developed such amazing and brilliant characters. He brought these characters too life and I for one will not forget them anytime soon. I highly recommend Love Cubed by Eddie LeFey!!!!
A few people have asked me “What inspired this story?” I’ve decided to publically answer this question:
The first idea I had was the scene where Sebastian asks Francis “Are you gay?” This is a question which was asked to me personally (well, several other times too, but…) in quite a similar way than that which I described in the story, Love Cubed.
I also wanted to describe, fictionally, the relationship I had with the person who asked me that question and another person whom we both knew. I wanted to explore what an ideal situation would be, as opposed to what really happened, because it was messy and certainly not a HEA situation. I wanted to explore the possibility that maybe there could be a HEA in this situation.
I also wanted to explore the world of sporty people. Homophobia abounds, still, in this world. There has been a lot of progress, but the problem still exists. Coming out as an athlete is still not easy and I wanted to explore what that meant.
I wanted to have a character that linked the crazily sexy sporty guy, and the closeted introspective one. So, I fictionalized, and emphasized, my own experience. Trauma is prevalent in the gay experience. There is plenty of bullying, but there is also a fair amount of sexual abuse of one sort or another. I wanted the main character to be the catalyst, the reason all the another characters wanted or needed to change. I came up with Francis who happens to have similar traits that I historically had in my youth.
Finally, I think that talking about sexual trauma and the fear of HIV is still important, even today. I needed that to be a part of the story, but I wanted the Sebastian and Andrew characters to be sympathetic,. I would hope that in that situation today, most young people would not let fear get in the way of their relationship. In this ideal world, that is the case.
If I hadn’t been writing a romance, maybe the characters and situation would have turned out much more realistic, but I was writing one. I wanted a HEA. I needed one, so I wrote one. I hope people will recognize that, but still see the underlying social situations, and think, and learn… if only a little bit.
Francis sighed. He scooted down off the sofa. He wanted to look at everyone when he said what he had to say, but he especially wanted to see Andrew and Sebastian. He addressed his comments to the blond beauty and the brown-haired Adonis. “I don’t want to be obvious. The more obvious I am, the closer the three of us get, the more people will start talking about the two of you. I do not want to be responsible for ruining your lives.”
Andrew was shocked. He hadn’t realized Francis had internalized his own fears.
Andrew jumped up off the sofa and walked to Francis, putting both hands on Francis’ face, cupping it. “Francis, babe, you don’t have to change who you are—not for me... or for Sebastian. You are beautiful just being you.”
Francis’ eyes had started to water. He needed to get this out. “What if I do something or say something? Maybe Marco knew because he’s gay himself—but Steve? He knew. I couldn’t cope if people started asking questions and pestering you. What happens if someone figures out who I am? Maybe this is a mistake. We haven’t thought about all the consequences. Not to mention, most people won’t understand why the three of us want to be together.”
Sebastian did not like where Francis was trying to take his train of thought. This wasn’t a mistake. They weren’t a mistake. He needed to steer this conversation away from thoughts of Francis stopping things. Sebastian also got up off the sofa and moved behind Andrew, sandwiching the blond. He put a hand in one of Andrew’s front pockets and reached out the other hand to grab one of Francis’ belt loops. He pulled Francis to him, gently. This caused Francis to be very close to Andrew; so much so Andrew could feel Francis’ breath. He could feel Francis’ thighs rubbing against his. Andrew could also feel Sebastian’s manhood on his buttocks. To calm himself, the blond turned his head slightly so he could temporarily avert the intense green-eyed gaze in front of him. He lowered his hands and put one on Francis’ waist. He reached back toward Sebastian with the other.
Francis looked into the brown eyes that were now in front of him, as Sebastian continued, pleading, "Francis, babe. People have been talking about me for years. I can take the talk. If you think no one has ever suspected, or talked, about Andrew.... Please don’t say you want us to end.”
Francis stared into Sebastian’s eyes. He could tell Sebastian was being sincere. That Sebastian wanted him, wanted Andrew, and not just for sex. If that were the case, they would have done the deed many times already.
Francis glanced at Andrew. A smile had formed on Andrew’s face. “Francis, I need to tell you two things. One: I know this is difficult. Having a relationship like this is hard. Nevertheless, I don’t want to hear this kind of talk again, unless you’re really serious. And two: Francis, you do know the last thing Steve said was directed as much to me, and even Sebastian, as it was to you. Don’t you? What does that tell you? Maybe you aren’t the only one who’s obvious—think on that.”